End of Fairytale

19th January 2008.

Today, we've formally become friends.

It marks the end of our 4 year plus abit relationship.

It's a day that both of us expected to come, just "when" is probably the question.

I've always believed that she will be the destined one to accompany me for the rest of my life.

Unfortunately, no.
At the very least, it did not end on the worst of terms.

I guess it's really time to move on...
though the road seems lonely and long...

两败俱伤

我试着听见

试着看见

所谓的永远 永远

好象还差一点 一点

无法听见

无法看见

永远 永远

就让我说爱你

一百遍不够 还不够

让一切再从头

你放手 全放手

我不想要的自由

发现原来我也有脆弱的时候

发现原来你加我等于什么都没有

发现不知到底还要走多久

多久 多久

反正只是没爱过

Summing 2007 up

2007 wasn't a very good year for me, especially the last 2 months...
It should have been the icing on the cake, but unfortunately turned out to be the most deadly poison.

The cake itself had already become stale and rotten.

I was probably too naïve to think that love exists forever and we could be together till death do us part.

How fast and bad things can change with the wink of an eye… I didn’t even have time to think…and WHAM!

Throughout the whole ordeal, she had said much heartbreaking stuff and criticized me for what I never was.

To her:
I was too boring and didn’t excite her
I was not romantic
I was too easygoing with no opinion of my own
I didn’t give her a compelling reason for her to see me
I have lost my drive to improve
She will have too many responsibilities to juggle
I lack communication skills by not calling or sms
The relationship has become stale and lacks passion


Though we seemed to be back together on the surface, nothing is the same anymore:

I do not trust and believe in her and the relationship anymore
I can’t see where this will lead to anymore
Even if the relationship does last, I am not the happiest man on earth anymore


She promised that she’ll change.
But does she know:

What she needs to change?
Will she change?
When will she change?
Can she change?

2007 is really a year I wish to forget…
Most important lesson learned: To take is better than give.

心很痛。。。

情侣本是同林鸟，大难临头各自飞。

1 Litre of Tears

"As long as it's you saying it,it doesn't matter how slowly you say it, i'll listen with patience.
If you can't talk over the phone, then i'll come and see you.
If you want to walk, no matter how slow it'll be, i'll walk with you.

Right now, i might not be that reliable. But one day, maybe i'll be able to help.
Things can't be the same as before, but there's an affinity that's linking us together.
We will lead a blissful life because i love you."

Excerpt from 1 Littoru no Namida Drama ver.

Where do you want to go?

This is the question that we always face.
Never being able to decide on a place to go on Saturdays when there are no events or sales happening in little Singapore.

Either she'll say i been to this place many times, or i am "sian" of that place liao... Or i'll say.. aiya there is nothing to see over there. But in most cases, she'll want me to "agree" with where she wants to go.

It's the same case during dinner time... It's never a good thing to have too many empty tables or no allocation of tables. Because she'll always say, "sui bian ni zuo na li loh" and just before i choose the spot and put my backside down... she'll reject that and then suggest another spot in the restaurant.

Aiyo.. how huh?... have to make rejected decisions sibei hard one leh.... How to decide on things when you know it's not going to be agreed upon...?

Anyway, on a very very side note, i had wanted to go Orchard to get her something like this. But i can't remember where are the other outlets other than in Orchard. (Side note.. so picture's got to be very very small...hee hee)

99cents Sushi

Went to try out the 99cents sushi restaurant, "Nihon Musa" at Tampines swimming complex at night. Had got to know of the place via the recommendation of "HDB tai-tai" that is showing on Channel 8 currently.

When we reached there at 7pm, the queue was one long stretch and we had to wait for almost 45minutes!! As usual, she got restless due to her grumbling stomach. Finally, we got a table and went scurrying for food.

The same marketing technique was deployed for this place.
Cheap sushi only with all other orders being more expensive than what you can get at other sushi outlets. Furthermore, i realised that the restaurant was actually started by the same owner of Yuki n Yaki. Wah liew!, no wonder the 99cents sushi wasn't that fantastic nor were the other relatively "expensive" items such as the sukiyaki beef ($10.90) or tempura ($12.90 for 5 small prawns). I can only give merit to its chawamushi ($3).
Don't think i'll go there again, since it isn't worth the time and effort in waiting.

Story's not begun nor finished yet. No time to continue.