Saturday, January 19, 2008

End of Fairytale

19th January 2008.

Today, we've formally become friends.

It marks the end of our 4 year plus abit relationship.

It's a day that both of us expected to come, just "when" is probably the question.

I've always believed that she will be the destined one to accompany me for the rest of my life.

Unfortunately, no.
At the very least, it did not end on the worst of terms.

I guess it's really time to move on...
though the road seems lonely and long...

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

两败俱伤

我试着听见

试着看见

所谓的永远 永远

好象还差一点 一点

无法听见

无法看见

永远 永远

就让我说爱你

一百遍不够 还不够

让一切再从头

你放手 全放手

我不想要的自由

发现原来我也有脆弱的时候

发现原来你加我等于什么都没有

发现不知到底还要走多久

多久 多久

反正只是没爱过

Monday, January 07, 2008

Summing 2007 up

2007 wasn't a very good year for me, especially the last 2 months...
It should have been the icing on the cake, but unfortunately turned out to be the most deadly poison.

The cake itself had already become stale and rotten.

I was probably too naïve to think that love exists forever and we could be together till death do us part.

How fast and bad things can change with the wink of an eye… I didn’t even have time to think…and WHAM!

Throughout the whole ordeal, she had said much heartbreaking stuff and criticized me for what I never was.

To her:
I was too boring and didn’t excite her
I was not romantic
I was too easygoing with no opinion of my own
I didn’t give her a compelling reason for her to see me
I have lost my drive to improve
She will have too many responsibilities to juggle
I lack communication skills by not calling or sms
The relationship has become stale and lacks passion


Though we seemed to be back together on the surface, nothing is the same anymore:

I do not trust and believe in her and the relationship anymore
I can’t see where this will lead to anymore
Even if the relationship does last, I am not the happiest man on earth anymore


She promised that she’ll change.
But does she know:

What she needs to change?
Will she change?
When will she change?
Can she change?

2007 is really a year I wish to forget…
Most important lesson learned: To take is better than give.