2007 wasn't a very good year for me, especially the last 2 months...
It should have been the icing on the cake, but unfortunately turned out to be the most deadly poison.
The cake itself had already become stale and rotten.
I was probably too naïve to think that love exists forever and we could be together till death do us part.
How fast and bad things can change with the wink of an eye… I didn’t even have time to think…and WHAM!
Throughout the whole ordeal, she had said much heartbreaking stuff and criticized me for what I never was.
I was too boring and didn’t excite her
I was not romantic
I was too easygoing with no opinion of my own
I didn’t give her a compelling reason for her to see me
I have lost my drive to improve
She will have too many responsibilities to juggle
I lack communication skills by not calling or sms
The relationship has become stale and lacks passion
Though we seemed to be back together on the surface, nothing is the same anymore:
I do not trust and believe in her and the relationship anymore
I can’t see where this will lead to anymore
Even if the relationship does last, I am not the happiest man on earth anymore
She promised that she’ll change.
But does she know:
What she needs to change?
Will she change?
When will she change?
Can she change?
2007 is really a year I wish to forget…
Most important lesson learned: To take is better than give.